Spinning

Spinning
Slowly, then faster
and faster and faster and faster
now out of control
and wobbling
and falling
and falling
and
fallen.

Lying on the ground
The world is still spinning above me
But I can't move
I can't function
I can't get control
Control of anything
My mind, my thoughts, my soul
All lying scattered around me
Tossed aside and upside down
I think.

Let me just lay here for a little while
Not sure what to say
I open my mouth to shout and nothing comes out
My eyes are tired, so I close them
The darkness is still spinning


I don't know how I started spinning
or why
or when
and I don't know where I am
except that I'm lying down
eyes closed
not sure if it's day or night
or how long it's been

Let me just lay here for a little while
Not sure what to do
I open my eyes to see and nothing comes into focus
My mind is tired, so I silence it
The darkness is still spinning

Everything is just a blur
A blur of space and time and consciousness
Days and nights
and storms and rains
and winds
pass


Let me just lay here for a little while
Not sure what to do

Let me soak in the rain, and the wind
Let the night wash everything away
until I am left with nothing
nothing at all

nothing at all except my mind
my thoughts
my soul

coming into clarity
coming into view

as the sun rises and the winds calm
and I open my eyes and the skies are clear
and blue

and I stand up

the darkness is gone
the clouds are off in the distance


someone left a note
it says "You are not alone."
I stand up (steadily) and look around

I am alone.

Or am I?

But my mind and my thoughts and my soul are back with me
picked up off the ground
no longer scattered
no longer tossed aside...

...at least for now.
For I still don't know where I am.
But at least I'm standing.

And the path in front of me is clear.
So off I step...
...towards the horizon...
..until the next storm...