Sometimes I Wonder (Part 2)

Where do I stand?
A thousand waves crash against the shore
Blown to and fro by winds gusting from every direction
Pulled back and forth by the full moon floating in the sky
Fading in and out behind the clouds
Casting shadows in the darkness...

And I wonder...

What does this all mean?
Where is this all headed?
Where am I headed?
What am I doing?
Besides sitting here, thinking and pondering,
and reflecting
much like the moon on the surface of the ocean.

Where do I stand?
A thousand miles away from anywhere
I don't know where the last somewhere was
I don't know where the next somewhere is
Looking around at the shadows in the darkness
Closing my eyes in order to be able to see...

And I wonder...
Sometimes I wonder
(as I wrote long long ago)
And I still wonder...

Where do I stand?
A thousand forces pushing and pulling
and turning and twisting and shoving and yanking
and grabbing and grasping and clutching
and it's not letting go
I just want to let go

And it's hard to wonder;
So hard to wonder...

Where do I stand?
A thousand different voices screaming and shouting
I don't know what you're saying
I don't know what I'm hearing
I don't know what I'm saying
I don't hear what I'm saying
I don't hear what I'm thinking

sunrises and sunsets and the clouds and stars in between
harmonies and melodies and the notes and rhythms in between
onward and upward and forward
the time is not right but time is time
And dark is dark
And light is light
And silence is

Golden.

Quiet.
Stillness.
Peace.
Peace admidst the chaos
and clutter
and the distractions

and it's time to let go
and it's time to go
and it's time
it's time
time.